Tick.. Tock.. Tick..

Lately time passes with such direction.. At times it seems as though I have a plan for each moment never wanting any of them to be used up with no intentions..

Anticipation of each passing day makes everything worth working hard for..

I need this blog..

There was a time when I needed this blog..

I needed it to express myself, needed it to be here for me since I felt I was all alone dealing with this life with no one to listen to me..

I felt I needed it to allow me to vent, to get out what was being held inside of me for a very long time..

I needed to know that folks out in the world were listening to me since I felt as though those I loved the most could care less..

I needed it to get out my opinion, my view point, my suggestions, because I felt no one wanted to hear them..

I needed this blog to be my friend, since I felt all mine left me alone to deal with MY problems even though they needed me for theirs..

I needed this blog, to celebrate with me on things that I accomplished in my life and to cheer me on with things I fell behind on since I was never expected to fail..

I needed this blog..

Now, though, I WANT this blog.. I want it to remind me of where I was and push me to places I want to be!

I WANT this blog, so that I can be an inspiration to others who have been through similar things!

I WANT this blog to be an outlet for me and to record what I have to say so my children can use it in their lives when they need me when I'm no longer here for them!

I WANT this blog so that my family knows how I felt and how I still love them..

I WANT this blog.. and I still NEED this blog..